Ive noticed something about myself recently. I am doing things that I normally wouldn't do, buying things I normally wouldn't buy, saying things I normally wouldn't say and its all for good! I am officially, but slowly coming out of my bubble, my comfort zone and I love it! I doubt those choices at times, but I still take that step.
The other day I needed a new purse. I found one, one that I normally wouldn't of been drawn too, but it called my name. I contemplated on it for a good 15 minutes, carrying it around with me, but I noticed I was loving it more. What if I never would of picked it up cause it wasn't my usual go-to purse? What if I never looked at it because it wasn't a color that I wanted? Now I love it!!!
I also have noticed me helping others more, whether it be with words, with finances or with just fellowship and let me say that God has been pouring out his blessings on me, because I know its where my heart is and we all know that God knows our hearts more than we do! I feel like for the past 3 months or so I have been finally growing up and allowing God to work in my life. I can feel Jesus shining through me and I know this is how God wanted me to be all along. Before, I was very selfish and lived inside my bubble. Things needed to go a certain way, traditions needed to stay the same and I didn't want any room for growth pretty much. How could I ever grow with my future husband if I'm stuck in my own way? How could I ever explore more or even befriend someone way different than me, if I was stuck in my way? I know that's not how God wants me to live. I know He will remove people and things from my life for me to go out and be an example for Him.
I have heard the story in the Bible of the man who was by the pool for 38 years, waiting for his miracle to be healed. Jesus came by and told him to "Get up! Pick up your mat and walk." I have heard this story more recently back to back and I know sometimes when we hear things over and over that maybe God is trying to give us a hint. This is the time that God has given me to better myself, help me to grow in Christ and be a better example to others, to be more Christ like. Well He cant really use me if I'm stuck in my bubble, with me stuck on the side of a pool waiting for my healing for 29 years. I am getting up, walking, trusting and getting away from the pool side. I'm slowly walking, its like walking for the first time, I'm a little wobbly, but its okay, because I'm walking. Am I like Peter coming over the boat, about to walk on water with doubt, fear and uncertainty with my eyes on Jesus? Of course!!! I'm human! Do I take my eyes off of Jesus sometimes and sink? Yes! But Jesus is right there grabbing my arms and pulling me back up.
I have heard my whole life that I was raised in a bubble and its true, but I know its not where God wants me. I know God has great plans for me. He is living and breathing within me and I follow. There are times where I feel like I'm at a resting place and I don't want to rest, I just want to keep going to the next best thing, but God likes to slow me down and let me enjoy my view from where I am right here, right now. He doesn't want me in a hurry to get to the next place in life, He wants me to be content with where I am, before He challenges me and opens up eyes up to something new.
God has been closing doors and opening doors in my life. I have been sad at times, because a door that was recently closed was 'comfort', but I know in my heart that it was time to close that door and God has great things planned before me. I know I will struggle and at times not understand what God is doing, but as of now, He has given me this peace that its all working for the good for me.
I challenge you reading this if you are stuck in a bubble, to pick one thing to do different than you normally would. Something that was so small, but yet so big to me is that this is the first year in my whole life where I didn't put my childhood ornaments on my Christmas tree. I put some new ornaments on there. Deep down it bothers me, but at the same time its freeing!! Its time to do something different, its time to look at a different scenery. Also for Thanksgiving I didn't get a ham like I normally have and for Christmas I'm already planning a different meal than in the years past. I know these things sound so small, but traditions that I have had has caused problems with friends and even some relationships and I never budged. That's how far in my bubble I have lived. So now God has been showing me that when I do something different, its actually fun, its actually exciting!!! Its like I'm breathing fresh air. My bubble has been stinky and cloudy for a long time and its time I live in the arms of Christ and allow Him to use me and let me see people and things the way He sees them.
I want you to allow God to show you new things! I pray that God will work in your life and let you finally LIVE!!!! Life is way to short to be stuck in this one-way mindset. I want to travel, explore, live and meet people who might need my help, advice or encouragement. Living to help others does something to you internally. Going outside your bubble and seeing other peoples happiness, hurts, losses and blessings, teaches you a new way of Christs' mercy, grace and love. When you are always looking in your own bubble, you see what you don't have, whats wrong with you, why things happened to you. YOU, YOU, YOU!
I just love my heavenly Father for giving me this time in my life to mature, to grow in Him and to teach me these life's lessons. I hope that maybe someone reading this who is living inside their bubble, might can pray and ask God for Him to open their eyes and reveal to them their struggles.
Walking with Christ isn't always easy, but its the best place you can be!
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