God has truly blessed me and yet I still struggle with where He is taking me in this journey of life. I know He is big on opening up doors in our lives and also closing them. I know sometimes we see the lesson as it happens and then we see it later down the road, but I know its for our good.
I wont lie, sometimes I still get sad at certain doors that have been closed, I seem to somehow put the blame on myself. Then I see doors that are opened and I know Christ is right there pouring His blessings on me. As humans we tend to see door closings as a deep loss or even a failure, but then we see why certain things didn't go to plan or certain relationships or jobs didn't work out. Its where we need to completely put our trust and faith in God that He is working His good in our lives.
Where have I been?
That's a good question. I tend to always step back from social media and the Internet to grasp reality. So many people, including myself can get wrapped up in other peoples lives or wondering who's doing what that we forget whats truly important. I know most people might say, "I can walk away anytime", but try it!!! You will be surprised at how much of a tendency you will have to pick up your phone to sign on to whatever website you are connected too. I just think we need to step away often and look at the relationships that is around us.
1. God has blessed me with someone whom calls me his angel, but in reality he is my angel, to help take care of my house issue and I am truly overwhelmed and blessed. I needed help financially with one situation for over and a year and then another issue for a few months and God just did His thing and took care of me!!! I pretty much have had my whole house re-done (When its complete, I plan to write a blog with pictures).
2. I also have a new member to my family. (I will post pics of them soon)
3. I got to meet my cousin from my dads side of the family, not once, but twice since I last blogged! He remembers playing with me when we were kids and I told him I didn't remember. Then I said, I remember this one time of playing in the backyard with a fence all around and a play set and the tree leaves were dead cause of Autumn with a boy in the backyard. He then told me, "Yep, that was me at my dads house". So I did remember!!! I felt like Ive known him my whole life and I just felt comfort to have met someone that was a part of me that I never got to see growing up. He told me that I look like alot of the women when they were younger on my dads side and I see it! To be almost 30 years old and just figuring out half of who you are is very overwhelming. I remember at dinner one night, my cousin said, "Just to let you know, when Conners' get mad, they SNAP!" I was praising the good Lord above, because I never knew where I got that from. My family is so laid back and I didn't understand why I got so mad so quick, but now I can blame it on the genes. The good part is though, we don't stay mad long!
4. I have gone on a few dates since I last blogged. I don't know what God has planned, but I had a great time and it brought lots of smiles to my face.
5. I re-did my living room! I never liked the color it was before and since alot of the outside was having a make-over, I wanted to do the living room. I still want to be able to put down some wood floors, but that will wait. I am still trying to pay off debt.
6. God has blessed me with 2 little mini vacations. I honestly thought that I would be a hermit at home this summer, but God allowed me to have lots of adventures and meet new people and also old friends!
7. I'm still close to getting to my goal of my weight loss, but seem to get stuck alot. I have actually won the Biggest Loser at work and I keep going up and down in the weight scale. When you get down to the last somewhat pounds, its hard to get those last off, but I'm determined and I'm not giving up.
I have a few more months until I turn the big 3-0. There are moments where I'm super excited, because I cant wait to see what the next 10 years are going to be. I'm claiming in Jesus name that they are going to be the best years!!! I'm a little sad, because these past 10 years sure did fly and its not quite exactly where I thought I would be at 29, but God knew, so I just need to trust that He has great plans for me.
I have lots of pictures and lots of things I could get more detailed about, but this pretty much sums up the past couple of months. I'm sure there is more, but I cant think of them right now. I did miss blogging, but I was enjoying life!!!
