WOW!!! I just read part 1 and part 2 as I published them and........I don't have any words. Okay, I do!!! I don't know who that girl was.
Over the past week, I guess, I have never been this woman that I am today. As I read my blogs of part 1 and part 2 and how crazy my mind was, I don't miss that. I don't know the words to say what God has done for my thoughts. I do pray for me to have Gods thoughts, but my mind has been in shut down mode. I don't talk to anyone, I sit and listen and I try and give out good Godly advice. I haven't heard God speak to me like He normally does, but I also haven't heard the enemies thoughts either and its so peaceful. I feel God touch my heart and lead me to Sunday School and church on Wednesdays, but never His audible voice. I feel Him like I guess other normal people do, but I also feel like Hes giving me a time of rest.
I have figured out the main root of my problem in my relationships. I was at work and it struck me like a bolt of lightening. I am now in the process of God working in my life, healing me, fixing me and the only person that can fix me, is God. Once I realized the problem, there was no way of humanly fixing it. This would be the act of God, but I knew it was possible. Ever since God revealed to me why I did the things I did when I was in a relationship, is when I have been still in Christ, with no thoughts. I don't want to share the problem, at least right now, but ask for prayer as God works in my life.
I also ask for you to pray for my health, I went back to ER again out of the blue one night at 5am when I woke up with pain. It was my second time in a week and they want to do surgery, but I don't have time for that. Morphine wont take away my pain and so they have to give me the highest drug to ease the pain. Also Hydrocodones don't do anything for me, but he said he couldn't give me Oxycodon because of a Texas law. I'm not in the mood for surgery and I have to work and mow and take care of my grandpa and deal with my fence and its just alot right now, but I ask that you just say a prayer for me that God will open up doors and relieve some pain.
Overall, I'm blessed, I cant complain, just trying to praise God in the storm!
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