ER visits

Here I am.....waiting at the ER....again.  I don't know what is going on in my life.  I don't feel overwhelmed by everything,  I know God is with me, but it's hitting me back to back.  I went to work today and about 3 hours in, my coworker comes in from outside and tells me my tire looks like it's going flat.  I go out and it's about half way down.  I go inside and started to come up with some choices I can do since I really don't have anyone and not many people are available at 1am.  I figured it all out and left work and took some time off.

I go home and catch up on some few things around the house and pray and read devotions and my friend asks me if I would like to go on a road trip.  I get in the car and it happened.........an attack.  I didn't even eat anything bad today, all I had was chicken and asparagus.  I
had over 900 calories to take in from a 1600 calorie diet.  We went to Walmart and I bought me some lemons cause they helped me the night before when I had an attack.

It wasnt easing up, so I told her to drive me to the Er. She dropped me off and I sat there alone.  I do not blame her,  because I wanted her to go do what she needed to do, but just like with the car thing, I'm alone.

I'm not sure what God is doing during this time in my life.  I do need surgery since it's starting to happen everyday and I'm doing what I'm supposed too with eating.  Why now this is happening....I'm not sure.

My fence that my neighbors dead tree fell on back in March is now starting to fall apart and I'm having to deal with insurance with that.

I know my problems could be so much worse and these are pain in the butt things, but it's hard when you do it alone.  I am glad I'm a child of God and God has my back,  cause I know it will all work out.


I wrote this on the 9th of May on my phone sitting in the hospital, I wanted to share it since it was my thoughts at the moment, waiting to be seen.