The book talks about being the "waiting room" with God and yourself. God wont let you get out of that waiting room till you have fully trusted Him and have waited on the lesson you need to learn during this season of your life. I love books that when I read them, its me, its my situation, its speaking exactly to me. I'm coming to the end of the book and I might have to re-read it, just because its so uplifting and makes you think.
If I look back at my life, I can see me in lots of waiting rooms with God, some of them I took the long wait, forgot to grab the 'your number' I guess you can say. I thought I could figure things out, I thought I could do it on my own, I thought I could fix the problem, I thought I was in control. I can look back and see how God likes to grab my attention. I'm a very hard headed person and sometimes it takes people to walk away, in order for me to look up at God. I get in this routine where life is grand and Rachel is in control and everything couldn't be better, I guess I would say, "I got this God". Of course, God laughs and reminds me that, "Hes got this!"
The past few weeks I was battling with the thought of, 'What was my purpose in this life?' I was feeling like everytime I got close to a prize in this life, it was always taken away. I blamed myself of course and was trying to figure out why I always failed. Ive been searching deep inside as my life has had some bumps here lately in my personal life and I just feel God smiling at me, while holding me and taking my burdens away. In the stillness of being with God, I have felt Him more than hearing Him and its actually very comforting. I know He knew that I needed to feel Him and me surrendering myself so He can guide me.
I know that I cant rush God, I know that I'm not in control, so theres no point in me even trying. I was reminded of my life, with my fence situation. On March 12th of this year, we had a really bad wind storm. The storm knocked my neighbors dead tree on my privacy fence that I have on my property next to my house. Today I finally settled with the insurance company and this is May 12th. It took 2 months to the day to handle and deal with this situation, but the truth is, I couldn't rush it. I waited for my neighbor to fix it and she didn't, then she wanted us to pay for half. I then got on the phone with her insurance company and wanted to file a claim. I then had to get someone out here to look at it and give me an estimate. The first person I called was the person who talked to me who tore her trees down, who was going to fix it in the first place. He left me his card and I called him and he said that he would bring by an estimate. He never showed up the day he was going too and then I called him back and he said he forgot and was going to bring it by that day. Well he never showed up and his word was thrown out the window at that time, so I looked up some more people to call. When I called 3 of them, 2 of them didn't answer the phone and the one person that did, said they didnt do estimates. Later that day I got a call back from one and he agrees to come by. A few days later he still didn't show up, so once again I called again. Finally he told me that he would be by before I go to work and he showed up. He was nice and helped me to deal with the insurance people and what to do. All this from calling and trying to get someone out here was all in about a 2 to 3 week time period. I did my part and called but the others didn't. Then when I called the insurance I had to wait 4 days because she wasn't going to be in the office.
I also can look back now that time has passed and because I waited, I now got a better deal. If I went ahead and settled with my neighbor and decided to pay for half, I would of been out of pocket and the job would of been a crap job. Since I waited and allowed time to pass and handed it over to God, for His will to be done, I now got a better deal and hopefully a better situation of my fence. Now that I have settled with the insurance, I'm going to pray for God to handle this and guide me where I should go with the money.
What I'm saying with all that is, you cant rush God, you cant rush people and I have learned to just sit back and let things happen. I also wake up every morning and give God today and today only. Tomorrow I will get up and give God tomorrow and tomorrow only and ask him to guide me, teach me and show me what it is I need to do for that day.
If we can just look at today and today only and the things you need to get done, just for today, you would be surprised at how much more peaceful life is. I was the worst at running every scenario in my head and all the 'what ifs". This time, God has slowed me down and said, "Let me work my child, let me show you what I can do, in MY timing". So I wait......and He shows me!!!
I do ask for prayers about my fence situation. I know it might sound like a crazy prayer, but the thing with God is, whats important for us, is important for Him. What might seem so small and stupid to ask God for a help or to send a prayer up, is BIG time to Him, because He wants us to go to Him for EVERYTHING!!! I do pray that God will send someone that can fix it or replace it all for a good price, since the money that I'm getting back wont build me a new fence. If you have any prayer request or any questions, don't hesitate to leave a comment with them or you can send me an email at JoyRachelsHeart@aol.com.
I pray that everyone has a blessed day!
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