"Wait, My child".

What would you do if you felt as if God told you to stand still?  

So you stood still.  

Then God tells you to wait.  

So you wait.  

Then minutes go by, hours go by, days and weeks go by.  

You ask God, "Okay, so now what, when can I move?"  

God simply says, "Just wait".  

"Can I eat?"

God says, "No, I will make you not hunger."

"Can I sleep?"

God says, "No, I will make you not tired."

"Can I play?"

God says, "No, you have no time for that."

"What can I do God, this is boring and I'm growing impatient".

God says, "Wait, my child".

The thing is, its pretty much how I feel.  I have peace knowing that there is a purpose to why I am waiting.  There is a reason why I cant move, that I'm at a stand still.  Its like I can see everything going on around me, but between God and I, I am in a room alone with Him, with no direction of moving forward.  Ive said before that I cant hear God and I know its because I need to Be Still and know that He is my God.

I cant really describe how my Spiritual Walk is right now.  I know that I'm pretty much doing everything I possibly can, to do Gods will and obey Him right now.  In short terms, I feel stuck, but I feel stuck Spiritually.  I don't fully know the whole reasoning on why God has me here, but I know its to simply trust Him.  

The past couple of weeks, God has been laying on my heart to teach.  I simply think its Sunday School, but I'm not sure what else there is that I could teach.  I'm in between churches right now.  I'm torn from my grandpas church,  because there are kids there that need someone like me, to be honest.  Someone young, who can relate and yet can spice it up and make learning about Christ fun and enjoyable, but there are a few things that I just disagree with that church and I don't know if I want to be affiliated with a church like that.  Then the church Ive been going too, I'm in a life group and enjoy it, but I'm not a member there and haven't felt led too join.  So that is one thing I have been praying to God to open up the doors for me to do and to guide me where He wants me to go.  Its kinda scary to think about going to a church, especially if you don't know it and then to be a teacher, but if God opens it up for me, then I will listen and obey and do His plan.  

While I'm in this room, waiting on God, waiting on Him to tell me to move, I know when its time for me to, when He thinks I'm ready or when Ive learned a certain lesson, I just can feel the blessings will hopefully pour out and I will see the plan that He already sees. 

 

God just constantly reminds me that He is in control.  When we think we have our lives planned out, or even just the following year, alot of times it doesn't go like we hoped for.  I personally struggle with me feeling as if I was made for so much more.  I remember last year I was stuck with jobs. I wanted a better job and was willing to work wherever and kept praying and praying for God to lead me, but for months, nothing. Then out of the blue, I got a phone call for a job that I forgot I even applied for and this month will be a year working there and I love it.  It was all in Gods timing.  Looking back we can see how God worked out things for us, but its during the trial and the waiting that as humans we struggle with, because we naturally want that control.

 

I prayed for God to mold me and this is Him molding me. My friend said it perfectly to me, "This is a time between you and God."  Shes right and I know it, it brought tears to my eyes.  One day I will be married and one day hopefully I will have some children, but this time, I'm single till God says I'm ready and this is the time to spend as much as I can bettering me for my future spouse and family, but most importantly, serving God.