I rented some movies and one of them was Son Of God. I started watching it while finishing up my blogs, but when it was time for crucifixion part, I went and laid down and watched it. I cried like a baby.
I was raised in knowing all the stories of the Bible and I know the story, but sometimes I think we need to be reminded at the details. I can honestly say that sometimes I don't want to hear the details, because I then feel guilty. Jesus died for me! He paid a gruesome death for every mistake Ive done. I have cursed God, I have turned my face, not listened, ignored Him and have shamefully disregarded my body, the temple He has given me.
Something that I want to share, because I want to be open with my walk, is that I am struggling with Jesus being enough. I think I need someone to be truly happy or need more in life to be fulfilled, but I do have my moments where Christ is enough. I want to feel that, all the time, I just feel as if something is missing.
I prayed tonight, during my crying moments where I want Christ to be enough and I will wait and wait until I get to that place. I want for my God to be my everything with or without a mate or a child. He needs and deserves my full attention and focus and I have to try and realize that not everyone can or will do that.
(I wrote this a week or so ago, but I still wanted to share)
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