I am who God wants me to be

THE BEST I CAN

I heard it at my cousins wedding and I got home and looked it up and I loved it.  I felt like it was my life.  

My whole life I have came across to society as this "goody goody" and alot of people thought I was just this sweetheart.  Deep down I had my issues and behind closed doors I would turn into this other person.  Its like I had a mask on and under that mask, was a monster.  I lied to myself, I lied to others of who I truly was.  I knew deep in my heart I was the person that I am today and theres still a part of me that still struggles with the monster.  I do have to give the credit over to God, because He knew that I couldn't be the person, woman, wife and mother with a mask on.  

I can say that I have taken the mask off and handed it over to God.  I want my inner to match my outer.  I want people to know that I'm not perfect, but that I'm trying.  Like the song says, "I don't live a perfect life, but God knows I'm trying the best I can". I have wasted so much time fooling other people and trying to keep up this façade, that I'm ashamed, but I cant say that its too late.  I'm 28 years old and for the first time, I feel like my life can truly start with the true me.  I cant wait for a man to see the same inner and outer of myself.

Also, just like the song says...."I'm breaking down and now Ive found, a reason to make it, this time around. No matter where I go, I want you to know, I know that I'm never alone".  Reminds me that God is always there and I'm never alone in this life. 

I love it when I find a song that speaks about my life.  I have to say this song is my life right now and its exciting to think I am who God wants me to be.