My prayer

My prayer I wrote on 05/25/14

Lord I know now is the time/season of growth.  My heart yearns to follow and understand what it is your still working in me and I know I'm still in this season.  This can get tough, lonely can set in, but you are my God who never leaves me.  Thank you God for forgiving me and giving me graces and mercy for taking the time to let me grow and be that woman you have created me to be.  I know that my future husband already set, so I give you my everything as I wait holding your hand.  I have to admits its hard sometimes, because I cant see, but I know you wouldn't guide me to a place that would harm me.  Help me to grow my faith in you that I wont be scared anymore.  I know Lord that fear is not from you.  I know at times I want to give up because the impossible looks like the impossible, but I know your word says, With Christ, all things are possible.  I claim that in Jesus Name.  I love you and I want to please you in everything I do, so please guide me, show me, teach me and to help  get me to that destination and next chapter without the long route.  I want what you want for my life, because I know you know whats best for me!  I do pray that you watch over my family, finances and friends, household, my health, grandpas health and my loved ones who are struggling with their personal issues.  I do pray that I will one day get married and have children and that we can be a Godly couple who serves you fully.  Show me what you want me to do, put people in my life to help and give me the words to say when people need to hear the most.  Use me God, that I may glorify you in everything I do, that people may see you in me.  Sometimes God I know I get impatient, but I know that's when your trying to grab my attention the most.  I look around and see people hurting way worse than me and I pray if I can help through my pain that I might help with compassion.  Thank you God for blessing me with each and every item you have loaned me, each and every person in my life, each and every trial and storm I have faced.  You have always been good to me and always been there.  I know you have never left me or forsake me.  I can find the comfort in that you are God of love and teach me to need that and only that for all the days to come, for I know people will hurt me, leave me, but you my God, never will.  Help me Lord to be an example to others and I pray that people will see your love and works in my life as I left them up to you.  God if what I'm feeling still is wrong, I pray Lord that you put it on my heart so that I may release and move forward.  If not Lord, this feeling that you have given me for almost a year is true and from you, that I may keep it near to my heart and claim it in Jesus Name.  I pray that others may feel it and that they may see your promises unfold in my life.  I want to thank you for everything in advance.  In my most precious Jesus Name I pray. Amen


I wrote this prayer in my prayer journal one day at work.  It poured out of me and today as I was having a rough day, I read it and of course got teary eyed.  This prayer was powerful to me and in fact when I wrote it, it moved me.  I mean every single thing I prayed for, I struggle sometimes with these feelings I have. 

I met someone who is going through the same thing as me.  They are waiting for someone who doesn't love them back and they cant shake what they hear and feel.  As we have communicated, we both can hear God almost the same way.  We struggle and don't understand and people around us don't understand what we feel and we know people think we are crazy.  I have enjoyed getting to know this person and its good to always talk to someone who is going through something you are, especially when its rare.