I started a cleanse on March 1st, its a 21 day cleanse and today is day 19. It was around the same time Brian and I had our situation occur. I still tried to do the cleanse the best I could. My cleanse consisted of 3 meals a day and 2 snacks. I had a list of items that I could only eat, but some of those days I didn't eat anything, because of my stress.
I went to the Dr's today, it was exactly 1 month since I was there last time. I have been going and seeing a hormone specialist for my hormones and weight and hes been trying all these different medicines to try and balance me out. I remember as I was walking into the building, I prayed to God and said, "Please Lord, let me lose at least 7 pounds". I haven't felt a difference in my weight or my clothes, so I was scared again that I was doing these 'food watching' cleanses and fasts and was failing.
When I walked in, I sat down and was there, maybe 3 minutes. One of the workers called me back and I knew what was about to occur. I sat my purse down, and walked onto the scale. Its a digital scale, so I see the numbers jumping up and then it stops. I was waiting for it to keep going and the nurse says, "Congratulations, you lost 21 pounds". I stood there staring at the numbers and said, "What?" She said "You were 257 before and now you are 236, you lost 21 pounds." I said, "Theres no way, I was hoping for at least 7 pounds, I don't even feel me with any weight loss".
We go in the room and I'm in shock. I'm literally sitting there picturing that scale and what it said. I looked back over the years and I remember being in the 230's when I was 19 with kidney cancer. At my highest, I have been in the 280's. I sat there thinking the past 19 days and the foods I ate and I couldn't believe it. Surely, just the simple foods that I enjoy and ate didnt just do this extreme weight loss?!
We talked a little about how I didn't feel a difference and I haven't really had anyone say anything to me about losing weight, so I didn't think it was falling off like what the numbers said. She said since I was under alot of stress the past few weeks, I probably just never noticed.
The Doctor comes in and I think he loves me and why I say that, is because I'm a challenge. He walks straight in and talks about how he read this book and met this man and he has a solution for me. I told him my weight loss and he got excited. He said I'm the first city co-worker to listen to him and follow his directions and had a good success story. I told him I am willing to do anything to better myself. I'm that way spiritually, emotionally, physically, I am open to anything, I don't want to settle for average or normal. I want to be the best I can be in every area of my life.
So, I told him, I want to lose 56 more pounds by December. He told me it was do-able, but it was up to me to do it. He told me at the end that he wanted me to do cross fit.......lets just say I laughed at him and he didn't laugh back. He was being for real, he said it would be good for me, but I think its because this man does it. Who knows......right now I am an open book to anything new and exciting that would benefit my life!!
He gave me this other medicine he wants me to try and I'm open for it!! I need to order it offline and so I shall see what that does for me. I see him in 3 weeks and he wants me to do more lab work Friday to see what my results are, if they have improved. I'm going to set myself a goal for 3 weeks until I see him again, I think I'm going to try and do 10 pounds.
I don't know what this life is going to do for me. I am taking it one day at a time and I'm trying to do what God wants me to do and to learn what I need to learn and to help who I need to help. I'm going to focus on God and allow Him to work in every part of my life.
April 9, 2014
Today I went and saw my Dr again. I was nervous and eager to see what the scale was going to say considering my new lifestyle change. I know that not every time I step on the scale I'm going to see a huge number of weight loss and that gradually it will be minimal of pounds or ounces. I did set a goal of 10 pounds, but once again really never felt a difference.
I get to the Dr's, I wait, theres a new lady in training so she takes a little more time than usual. She calls me back and I stepped on the scale and for some reason in that moment of the numbers going up, I forgot what I weighed before. So when it finally stopped it takes me a few seconds to realize what the before and after was. My before from 3 weeks prior was 236 and today it was 231. So my goal was 10 pounds, but I lost 5 and hey.....I will take that! It took time getting this weight on and I know it will take time to get it off.
I see my Dr and I don't know what it is about him, but I just adore him. He is all about organic stuff and trying to do things the good ole natural way and what our body needs to help us live a long successful life and the other awesome thing is, hes free, because I work for the city, so I cant complain.
He wanted to see me back in 3 months, but I wasn't going to have that, so he said he will see me once a month till I get my weight goal, sounds good to me!!! It also will motivate me to stay on track because I know I'm going to see him and hes a brutally honest kind of person like me, which I need and will hold me accountable.
I'm definitely feeling more confident and walking with my head held high. This is my life and I'm the only one that can change or fix it and I'm willing to help anyone who might be wanting a healthy change of eating or to lose weight. I ask God to use me and to be an example and I know if I can do it, so can you!!!
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