Being used

Something God has revealed to me during this time of my life is TIME.  How often do we try and rush into the next chapter of our lives?  We always want things NOW!  How many times do we look back and wish we took the time and enjoyed a certain part of our lives? 

As I look back at my life, I can see how I have rushed alot of my time.  I sit here at the age of 28, looking back at the past year, the past 5 years, and even the past 11 years since I graduated.  I can see how I wasted alot of time on things I couldn't control, things I couldn't change and things I wished could of happen.  I wasted alot of my time on things that really didn't matter. 

I wrote in my previous blog about "my time of growth" and yet I catch myself trying to rush the process, instead of just enjoying this time and allowing God to work in my life, to show me what it is I need to learn and do until the next door is opened.  My transformation is amazing to me and the people around me are in awe and I'm so thankful that I have had this time, but why do I tend to rush it?  I will NEVER get this time back and I don't want to look back one day and ask myself, Why didn't I do that?  Why did I rush that time?  I also feel as if we try and get ahead of God and His time, He delays the process. 

I look at my future and I want to get married and have a family and watch my kids grow and I cant wait till God opens up that door, but then I caught myself realizing that Yes, it will be great, but what about now?  What can I do for someone now?  What kind of person can I be as a witness now?  God is using me NOW!!!  Later down the road, whatever may come, God will use me then, but I need to focus on the the present. 

I want to better myself in my body, so I wont be overweight and I can glorify God and be healthy to serve Him.  I want to be an example and an encourager for someone who may be struggling and is weak.  I cant be that person if I'm living so far in the future to where I'm not at.  Jesus lives in the presence with us, He walks with us and carries us at times when were so weak and weary.  You cant change the past, so theres not point being there either.  Instead take that regret, take that lesson, take that disappointment, take that wonderful moment and treasure it, learn from it, grow from it and appreciate that it made you who you are.  If there is something or someone in your past that has let you down or hurt you, my suggestion is to hand it over to God and forgive them and to see the blessings that are all around you.

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.


I personally have gone through my own set of struggles and I deal with them everyday.  Something I have learned is to give it over to God and if that is handing it over to God a million times a day, everyday, then its worth it, because it gets better and the weight gets lighter to the point you look at it and praise God that you went through that time, cause you see the person you are now.  I have come to the point in my life where every single day, I thank God for my hardships.  I thank God for the moment I'm in right now where I don't know whats going to happen.  I feel as if my future is thrown up in the air and I don't know whats going to happen, but in reality every single day, all of our futures are thrown up in the air.  At any given moment our lives can change for the worse or for the better.

One moment you could buy a lotto ticket, not thinking nothing of it and you win.  One moment you could see a loved one and then their gone.  One moment you could go to the Dr for a check up and then you have cancer.  Scripture says that this life is going to have hard times and struggles.  Alot of us don't understand why certain things happen to us or our loves ones, but in that moment is when I recommend you ask God, smack in the middle of a hard time or even a great time, "Lord, what am I supposed to learn during this time, what is it that I need to do, open up my heart and guide me".

We need to remember that God sees the whole picture of our lives.  He has our books already written and we go through life flipping each page, not knowing what lies on the other side of that paper, but just know that when you put your whole faith and trust in God, that even during the hard times, God has his best waiting for us.

Romans 8:28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. 

I know that no matter what happens in my life that God will open up doors and close doors. I know that my life will face many more struggles and trials.  I know I will be hurt and I know I will feel like I'm on top of the mountain.  Just remember that you were created for a purpose and God has a purpose for each of our lives. 

I was thinking the other day that I was created.  My mom wasn't married and she had me out of wedlock.  She was on birth control and yet still got pregnant.  Each person that I have affected in my life, would of never of happened. Look back at your life and see who you have impacted, the co-workers, your spouse, your children, strangers that have come across your path.  God has a purpose for you and He has placed certain people in your life for a reason.  Are you being the example they need to see?


I pray that whoever reads this blog, gets something out of it.  I hope it makes you think what it is that you could better yourself in a part of your life.  Alot of times when I write, I sit down because my heart is desiring me to write and I know its God giving me the words to say.  Just remember that each trial you have faced, a loss you have had or maybe an addiction you battle with, that God can use to help others and you can share what Gods strength did for you to overcome them.