Its been awhile

Since I last wrote on here, a lot has changed.  I originally was going to write a post on how my 30th year was probably the best year I have ever lived, but right after my 31st birthday, just less than a week ago, my world got flipped upside down.

As I'm grieving, I just am home and want to write.  I used to love writing and found enjoyment on sharing my ups and downs and my lessons and blessings to others.  In this post, I'm going to write my past year.

I met a guy last August whom I fell in love with and we made it official in October.  In our relationship, it took me awhile to finally get used to each other, because we are both straight forward people and hard headed, but we have grown and respected each other a lot and I am so grateful. 

When I turned thirty, I got to ride in my first plane and then jumped out of it.  It was such a dream of mine and I was so excited.  I never got nervous, but enjoyed falling to the earth.  We also went to the Reunion Tower in Dallas, a Rangers game and also the State Fair.  It was a very good birthday.

Another change that I had this past year was, I got another job.  I'm still in law enforcement, but its way better pay and better insurance.  God opened up that door and I didn't want to walk through it, but I trusted Him and I am so glad I did, because I know I would be way far off right now.  While I'm on this topic, I want to share that when this job was brought to my attention, I ignored it.  I felt the Holy Spirit remind me of it and I just KNEW I needed to apply.  The truth is, I applied for a different position, and still got this job that I have now, so I knew it was a God thing. 

Looking back, I don't remember my thoughts and what made me get up and go, but I applied to refinance my home in my name.  I had been working on it for over a year, not applying for anything, not using any credit cards to build up my credit and I walked in one day and applied and that too changed my world. 

With refinancing my home, God directed me to something that I have been wanting/needing for awhile now and that's a new car.  God allowed me to get the dream vehicle I always wanted, and more.  It has way more features than I originally wanted, but I am so thankful and feel so blessed to finally have it. 

On top of even all of that, God has allowed me to pay off all my credit card debt.  I do have a couple of credit cards with 0% interest, but that's okay, I am slowly working on those.

I felt in my heart that I see my grandpa getting older and his sisters mind was slowly depleting, I knew it was important to gather them together.  We made a family of 6 trip to the beach this summer so they could spend some time together and go over memories and play dominoes.  I wanted my grandpa to feel sand in his toes and also get in the beach.  My job was good to me to have off so I could even though I was still new and I will always remember those memories. 

Five days after I turned 31, my grandpa went to go be with the Lord.  He went how he wanted to go, which was asleep and no pain.  He did have health problems suddenly that did lead him to the hospital that night and maybe one day I may write about that, but right now all I want to say is, he is not longer here, but running on the streets of gold in heaven with his wife and family.  I have to say, I'm a little jealous, because he left me here with Clinton and Trump (lol, joke.....no but for real, he did). 

We just had his funeral yesterday and it was a good, sweet little funeral.  There wernt a lot of people there, but if you think about it, its kind of a blessing, because that means he outlived his friends.  I have been really numb, happy, and sad, and jealous and scared about my future.  I know I shouldn't be scared, but I have no parents left and I just know one day when I get married or have children or even next month with Holidays coming up, I don't know how I'm going to feel. 

I know I'm strong, I know God has a plan for me and I know that He is writing my story.  God knew that on October 9th, grandpa was going to go Home and I know that God loves me so much that throughout this amazing year He has opened up doors and given me strength through all of the fears of financial changes, that at the end of the day, today, I would be okay!  Even though I don't have any parents left, MY GOD is still MY FATHER and I am still His daughter and I am trying to hold on to faith and His love that I will always be taken care of.  God has used people to help bless me and take care of me and I don't want to forget that.

I don't want this blog to be any bragging rights or anything like that, because I am very blessed and very thankful for what God has loaned me this life.  I will miss grandpa very much and because of that man, I am the woman I am today.  I couldn't of asked for a better mom or grandpa and I am so happy that God blessed with me God fearing parents.

It feels so good to blog.......I know I might be rusty or all over the place, but whomever does read this, I hope it somehow touches you and reminds you that God loves you and WILL take care of you.

Here's a link to his memorial. Bubba Fincher

One thing that EVERYONE has told me that they remember about my grandpa is......HIS SMILE!!! He was always smiling and wanting people to be happy.......that makes me happy!!!

Here's an example of what my year was like and I do hope that I can pick blogging back up and maybe share more pictures of this past year and what's going on with me currently.  I hope you enjoyed!!